Thigh Gaps

I've always wondered, what makes girls happy. Being curvy? Busty? Skinny? And Thin? or it the self image displayed on TV that determines our happiness. I have been disturbed. Being skinny isn't enough, girls are now pining for thigh gaps. What are they? an advertised body image encouraging a wide space, that separates, the thighs. This gap, is more than just a space, its the beginning. Girls are becoming Weak individuals, who are easily influenced. Not to fear....if you have great self confidence. But what are we gonna do? stand by and watch the people we care about kill themselves; trying to be something they are not. I don't think so. Ladies, we need to fight what we see on TV and be ourselves. It's no that hard. Lets fight

Emotional Wreck

This may seem like a rant, and I apologize ahead of time, but I have no one to talk to, I'm tired of everyone. And everything. I have three tests, a quiz, and an essay due tomorrow. I have a selfish ass teacher who won't take down this Math XL bullshit, and I'm afraid of what my grade is going to be. I can't sleep, which sucks because I've been trying. My body is shutting down, I can't stop crying; this really sucks. Plus, my mom isn't answering the goddamn phone, I mean nothing can be THAT important, so what are you doing. ugh. I don't feel good, and right now I don't care about anything. My little brother needs to go to sleep because he's pissing me off. Honestly you guys I'm about two seconds from tossing this computer into the trash. I'm hungry. so random I know, but I want to eat then I guess I'm gonna have to cook it myself. This might be my first break down. I don't really talk about how I feel because there is NO ONE in my life that I can truly confide in, which sucks. Family sucks, sharing sucks, siblings suck, homework sucks.....you get it though. Goodnight, before I say something that I might regret, but would be 100% true.

Shitty First Drafts

     Recently, I read an article by Anne Lamott caled "Shitty Firsts Drafts." At first , I belived that she was talking about essays, but she wasn't I was wrong. She was talking about wrinting as a whole, and how all writers have crappy first drafts. Writers are their own critics, we tear our pieces apart day by day, so we don't need anyone (not friend or family) to tell us when our writing sucks. Up until now I thought that y ability to write was limited to the very journal I wrote this in. Now, I realize that all writers second guess themselves [when they start writing]. All this time I've been second gussing EVERYTHING that I've every written, crying, whining , complaing, and shouting (inwardly). Everyday that I dont write, my day is ruined. Confidence. That's what I need, that, and someone to read my work and saw "WOW!!! that sucks, but I know you can do better." Its funny how the thing you want aren't always what you need. A support system. Whenever I feel like crap, my writing is crap, but when I try to think positve, my writing is worse. I needed help. So I asked the most [brutally] honest boy that I know, and he tells told me exactly what I didn't want to hear. Later, I realzed that actually told me what I needde to hear, but I still didnt like it. So, here I am writing a shitty first draft, and loving every second of it.