fix my heart

Lately, I haven't been feeling like myself. Ive been sad, depressed, anxious, ad will wond overall moody. My mind will often wander to a separate place,than where I am. It all starts at home:things are spiraling out of my control, my close family members are destroying the person that I have tried so hard to build. Work: is the only place i where can breathe, but I cant breathe without it. I feel so much pain and it hurts not to know why I feel so much negativity. My baby brother is an innocent, he hasn't. Had to suffer as much as I have, and I resent him for it. No, Ive never been touched or anything like that, but cant youbsee where my problem starts...I sure as hell cant. I pride myself on independence, but I depend on places to take me away. wanting, wanting, crying, I cant escape...I want to. I need a shrink who can make me happy again, fix my heart, and...take me away from the pain that has entered my life. Why do I feel like this? What I have I done so wrong that I cant be alone, to fix myself. I like solitude, I cant function without it.God I need you.