I'm not just playing with your emotions, I'm damaging my own!

My personal life is above average, but my love life is anything but average.Honestly, I would have to get out a lot more for my love life to take any effect. A friend that I've known sense preschool and I, have been texting and talking but up until now I've only thought of him as a friend. At this moment he's a little bit peeved at me, because I keep dodging his questions, like a roger rabbit. Whenever I need someone to talk to about the latest crush or other things, he's always there, but now I have no one to really turn to but my blog and my inner self. Jumping in to a situation slowly, but surly has always been my approach, but how how does one go about a situation like mine. this isn't like chatting with a stranger and getting my flirt on, it's about a person who knows me like no other to the point where he can call me out on my b.s actually its kind of ironic how I try to hide how I feel, yet the same people who know me are the ones who keep pulling it out of me. Last time it was a boy whom of which I did crush on, and for an embarrassingly long time. Now I'm over it.