Dear Mental Breakdown

Dear Mental Breakdown, Why do you come and go? Why must you invade my mind, and fill it with negative and depressed thoughts? Well I concede; you won over my day. It began in the morning and lasted throughout my night. Early this morning, my mom yelled and screamed about the house, about how she washed clothes and they aren't folded, she needs help, I don't do much (other than work, do homework, and go to school), etc. Any other time I would jump at the chance to prove her wrong, but after the hundredth time of this same conversation, I've learned to say nothing, keep my head down, and do what she wants. However that is not my problem, for punishment she threatened to keep me from school, just so I could clean our semi-clean house. Let me explain to you that I am not the average child, or student. I actually enjoy school, learning, and education. My life isn't unfair, I wont complain, or whine. I will do as my mother bades me and I'll smile through the pain. If I have to, I will stay up at all hours of the night to clean, THEN do my homework. On the days that I have to work( event though I will be exhausted) I will go with a smile on my face, ignore all the negative things that I feel. But there are days when you make me scream, shout, and cry. Those days are the worst; I cannot control myself, but I will not give in today...I must not, because I have to be okay. I MUST make people believe that I am okay.